Alcoholic

i just woke up right now.... don't feel as sh!tty as yesterday, but feel so 空虛。
i didn't cry at all yesterday. everytime tears accumulate in my eyes, i always just "awk"高頭， 等眼淚唔會掉下，等風吹乾. so i walked on the streets for 3 hrs yesterday lifting my head into the wind.
but i guess i wasn't as strong as i thought i would be because by the time i was tired enough to go to bed at like 1ish am, i just kinda silent cried a little bit in bed on my hubby's shoulders.

i'm trying to let it go like everybody tells me to. understand that it passed...& i have chance to look forward to... but it's so hard! at least i don't feel so choked & bitter now... just feel so 空虛. in a way, it's better.

sigh
Sazabi, your idea only works in imagination. it's childish thoughts, i tried to think of funny ways i can 打小人in my mind...but it just didn't make me feel better. i guess i'm not a kid no more

sigh
有人自然就會惹塵埃~ it's so difficult to have your inner self to 覺悟智慧, while your 肉體在塵世追求虛無的物to survive

myversa

If you do not mind me asking....

What happened?

Babida

beer, beer, beer; music, music, music.

Ultraman

原帖由 pinkyblue 於 2008-3-28 09:59 發表
你都叫做好啦..仲有另一半錫番..我如今只獨單一人...唉.....

She didn't mention she has any care from her another half wor? Maybe hurt from him originally?? What happened and who upset her? Anyways, "to untie the bell needs the one who tied it" la!

puZZle

sadness will pass
but more new sadness will come

why don't you look for a solution that lasts longer?

angeldevil

humm...
to me, using diff. ways to cheer myself up really depends on what happened

if it's family thing> usually cry / tell someone what it is & get some agreement & comfort from someone else
if it's love problem> can't do anything... love problems has greater temporary impact on me
if it's work problem> usually just talk it all out

after I had some treatment to 'the problem' now I'm left with my emotions...
if i'm pissed> i'll just be really grumpy
if i'm down/ empty> i'll
1).eat whatever I wanna eat/drink (that's eatable& drinkable)
2). just let myself to be as empty & as 頹廢 as I can... used up all of these negative energy

THEN do something that i'm good @ to satisfy myself... u kn... feel some sense of accomplishment & hope in order to get myself going..

coz I believe when u approach to the max of the negative, all its left is positive~
=D

its kinda complicated to explain... plus, it didn't work everytime, too
but hope that it helps...
the best way is find urself a 心靈上 ge relief...
cheer up~
=D

Alcoholic

I have alot of support, care & comfort from my hubby.

while other people comfort me, my heart will feel better, makes me feel that i'm a strong person, which i am.

but dunno why when my hubby comfort me, it actually made me very weak... that's how i went through the whole day without tears falling out, but at night in bed with his comfort, i couldn't help but cry on his shoulders. maybe because with him by my side, i feel so safe that i can just let off my guard & be a 小女人。

what happened was a very complicated progression of slow death poison. i wouldn't mind sharing it, but i know for a fact that some LYK民運份子 will start a drama. my lesson learned: you ability, persistence, strength & tolerance has no affect on your survival chance in any type of battlefield.

myversa

Go out with your hubby tomorrow and forgot about everything lo.

Maybe you can go to the dog who in Abbersford.  Seeing cute dogs will make me forget sad things.

scottina

講粗口..

Littleprince

原帖由 Alcoholic 於 2008-3-28 11:52 發表
I have alot of support, care & comfort from my hubby.

while other people comfort me, my heart will feel better, makes me feel that i'm a strong person, which i am.

but dunno why when my hub ...

你講起這種感覺我都試過﹐我發覺係響一個強壯的臂灣內就會找到自己內裡的小女人。。。

我一向扮剛強﹐死都唔響人面前哭。。。響加拿大第一份工﹐都係成日要服務客人﹐有時難免比客人罵﹐我不夠膽回罵﹐但一定死頂唔會哭出來。。。只有一個老闆﹐唔知點解﹐我響他面前哭了三次﹐他沒有罵我﹐每次都只是溫柔地安慰我﹐我都覺得呢種情況好奇怪。。。響其他人面前我點都忍到﹐但對著他我就完全軟晒﹐或許因為他比到我安全感吧﹐其實我都唔太明點解。。。或者因為人同人之間係有種很微妙的化學作用吧。。。