good morning everyone.
I think the first thing i need to do is to transform myself back to a normal human, from a machine.
Rightnow i want to be happy, but i just can't. I have lost that ability.
When i was off and staying home, i was walking around the house and felt so bored.
I need to learn how to be happy again. I told my mum i have lost my function to smile/laugh, i always have my poker face.
I need to learn how to live happily even i am single.
My ex told me i am good on everything, except, yes, i don't enjoy life.
She said she is very tired being with me, she wants a new life.
i am very frustrated.
My feeling is like a good kid working very very hard but still got beaten so bad by mum.
It is not his fault, but he was working hard on something her mum doesn't want.
Warning to all young people who are working crazy schedule as i used to be,
When you feel you are not happy even you have more money, please work less. Spend more time with the people beside you.
If you could make changes now, do it now do it now!before it is too late!
I lost my gf, i lost my health, i lost a warm family, because when i woke up to work, they were still sleeping, when i got home, they slept already.
I feel so bad somehow. I just can't relax myself.
I know i need some time to adjust myself, but in this moment, my heart hurts so much.
Thanks everyone. |